emo

So I havn't been this upset in awhile. I really just don't know where to begin or what to type and not type. Last night was just shit. After i had a intense conversation that I really don't want to repeat with a friend I went up to my other house and saw Nick. We walked around outside and talked. He made me feel better because that is his charm. When we were walking to my house and right as we got there my parents pulled up and my mom got out of the car and gigi sped off. I new something was wrong. My mom pretended everything was fine but i could see it her in eyes that something was really wrong.
Nick and I went to my room and about 10 minutes later I heard them yelling so I turn on my fan so we couldn't hear it. about 20 minutes from that Nick had to go home. We walked down the stairs and gigi was standing there in hte kitchen. We both said hi and When gigi responded he voive just sounded empty. I walked nick to the gate and he left. Then I came back inside and Gigi explained to me that she couldn't do this anymore and she had to leave. Gigi had never said that before. I had found out that gigi had thrown my mom against a glass door holding her throat. At that moment i was trying to be ok. trying to just take deep breathes in and out. Nick called because he was walking home and just wanted to have a distraction. i explained what was going on. I think he could tell that I really wasn't ok. At all. He talked to his dad and said he could see me for another 30 minutes. As I was trying to leave my house my mom stoped me and was saying that I couldn't leave her. Does she ot understand? I can't do this again. I can't take care of her again. I ran out of the house and mt up with Nick again. I started crying in his arms. I don't do that. I'm one of those people that no matter whats going on i try to act fine. May be thats screwed me up on some ways beucase some people don't even believe whats going on with me. I felt horrible crying infornt of him. I never want to do that. People who read this are probably going to think that I'm just being stupid and emo. I'm really not trying to be. anyway Gigi and my mom are ot good still at all. Today gigi left and then came back but left again. Plus other things are going on that i don't really want to talk about. Today i've just felt empty. I hung out with lucy, Olivea and Nick. it was fun. Even though it was hard to put on a smile.