these past couple weeks have been really really really tough.


I dont want to get into the drama thats going on at home....

plus college.....not knowing where nicks going to choose. I want to go to Emily Carr more than anything. I've really tried to keep an open mind about CalArts..but i honestly dont think im going to be happy there. Everything seems to just fit in Vancouver. I think deep down inside i think we're going to go there....but...you never know what the future really hold instore...for you...

Ugh

I hate not knowing things....I REALLY do...It sucks so hard core.

I've jut been feelings weird ....

really sad...

I need to get away....

Honestly...know ones getting how upset I am...I mean, I dont blame them... because i'm quiet. It just sucks. I'm in a lot of pain right now.

all around in pain.... health wise and emotionally.

Today was sweet though. I had a lot of fun with nick. I really love him...... He really fits me. I'm just scared...of college

For some reason I really need a hug right now...

maybe its because i'm at the hell house hold

or maybe its because i just need comfort in general