Its weird how everything can be so stressful for awhile and then you move on to something else....

It kinda of ridiculous in my opinion............

I had to take my extensions out....Oh god i can feel my scalp! WHOA MAN!!! I also realized my head is way lighter! WHAT IS THIS? I'm going to millenium for dinner! YAY! i'm very excited.....

i'm tired and at the moment happier than I've been! I do have to take all of my music off of my mothers computer and I only have an hour.

Uh OH!

WORRY

Gigi emailed me and asked for my email address...I didnt know what to do so I gave it to her...then I asked why and she responded but never answered that question....

She didnt even acknolodge that i gave her my address...


what is she going to do with it??? Im so scared....AH

VOID

I think Im dead...my eyes are are all red with no white....


I think I have thrown up everything inside of me...


SHES such a bitch....

and even tho i know its not going to happen....I worry...

Just cos you feel it doesn't mean it's there

Sooo i've realized that moving takes forever and is very very stressful! I'm really tired and annoyed at some things...GRRR I want something but im not sure what...its kinda weird...I'm just on edge....

everyones gone and I'm alone in my apartment....but they have the keys so I cant go anywhere...fuck this

I wish I new more people here...really i do. I cant wait until emily carr starts! So i can make many new friends! REALLY! I cant wait


i'm having low self esteam issues at the moment UGH!

so I drove to vancouver...for 2 days with nick and val! it was an interesting experience! Now i'm sitting on my balcony of my wonderful apartment that is 6 minutes away from the school. I honestly cant even describe how happy I am! Even though my health stuff/pain isnt doing so great..It really overrides it! Im SOOO fucking happy. I miss people though...really I do!

But it is serioualy amazing!

How the fuck can I know this person since i was fucking 3 years old!!!! and then the whole time they were crazy and a liar and dangerous? I MEAN!!! WTF!!!!

FUCKING LIAR!! HOW CAN YOU FUCKING LIVE WITH YOURSELF GIGI? seriously take a fucking second and look in the god damn mirror and REALLY THINK....what kind of person you are with out the money behind you....with out the fake self where you try to convince yourself by convicing others your an amazing person...BECAUSE i know deep down inside you HATE yourself....

and get this....YOU SHOULD!!!! I HATE YOU! I really do....YOUR FUCKING SICK...HOw cold you think it was ok to treat me the way you fucking did?


I"M A SPOILED BRAT?? I might know money and such but i still dont lie and fucking dont abuse the people that I so called LOVE! I fucking proved you wrong! I worked all by myself and got into a TOP art school with a top scholarship! I've always better than you and you just hated that didn't you??? DIDNT YOU!!!!????

FUCK YOU! YOU SELFISH NARRSO WHO REALLY SHOULD JUST FUCKING LIVE ON THE MOON!!! that would be the best for you because only you would be there...and only you would have to deal with your self...

fucking CUNT!


I HOPE YOU READ THIS SOME DAY..really i do