Sunday, October 26, 2008


I dont really know....

Im really burned out but happy!!! I'm listening to the virgins pretty content...i guess! I dont understand why that tattoo woman isnt email me back,... I have a really bad head ache!

I wish i didnt look the way i did....thats my problem right now....

Idunno
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BAD SELF ESTEAM

I also want my guitar...I want to sing....It would make me feel better..i guess

I'm so worried about grades! Im working sooo hard and I'm not getting the grades that i want :(!

Monday, October 20, 2008


"I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined my street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday. "